The Journey

Where has time gone?????? It feels like yesterday that I was pregnant and I felt Aiden kick inside my tummy. Yet that was almost a whole year ago that I was feeling that wonderful feeling. I've always been a sentimental person, but this whole last baby turning one has me all emotional for some reason. I guess I probably just said it. It's my last baby that is growing up way to fast. Aiden has been such a amazing baby and now we are heading into the toddler years and I know he will grow and change tremendously over the next year and months. He's already on the verge of walking and he is already saying Hi,Bye,mama,dada and OHOH, and oh No,Vroom. When I look back 6years and think of when we first had Keaton I was so overwhelmed and scared all the time that I was doing things right, then we had Ryan and the craziness of our household grew but so did Ben and I. I became so much more relaxed and started to just enjoy what it was to be a parent. Now with Aiden I think I've come full circle. I have enjoyed every bit of watching him grow without all the stress that I use to feel. Some days are nuts, and just down right painful but most are unforgettable as I'm watching each of them grow into little men. I have been here to see all the big moments, and I am seeing all my crazy long days pay off as they seem to be well adjusted happy little boys. I'm truly glad that I have taken the time and let go of all the stuff that truly is not important in the big picture and focused on my kids this year. It was a journey to let go of not having a clean,orderly house every minute of the day, to let the kids get messy and enjoy themselves at whatever they were exploring, and to just join in on the fun and let go. As I look at Aiden now I am so amazed by him and thankful that he is mine, yet were did the time go that he grew up right before my very eyes. How does this happen that they were so needy and small and now so independent. Life is such a journey and it goes by so fast,each moment with your family and children is special and you CAN NOT get it back. I am bound and determined to make the most out of each day and treasure the past as memories as those are what can go on forever no matter how much time goes by. So over the next few weeks I will get ready for my babies 1 year Birthday Party and I will look forward not back but a little part in my heart is sad as our family will be saying good by to babyhood for good and say hello to all the new big kid adventures ahead. Oh what fun is still to come!