Getting IT!

Well this sure has been a long year but one that has open my eyes to so much. I guess god has funny ways of making sure he gets you to pay attention to something you never paid attenion to before. TRUE STRUGGLE. So many now a days think that their problems are so big. I get it trust me, when you dont feel good it SUCKS!! But I mean really struggle, not with a cold, flu or a headache. I am talking true struggle such as tumors, cancer, stroke, chronic illness that doesnt seem to want to give you a break. I have now seen the other side of struggle that I was clueless too before. I have never been one who has wanted to draw attention to myself. I dont need the world watching me do a thing. I'm shy and and introvert at heart so this whole struggle thing has been hard on me to understand. Recently though i have come to realize that I have been struggling, I do hurt and even though their are many who have it worse off I too have endured alot and I'm tired of people discounting that. I know that others have it just as bad or even worse and I will be the first to feel for them or to want to be there for them as I truely do get it. I'm finally owning my place in struggle, I'm not allowing people to treat me like shit because they think they can discount what I've gone through. I no longer need validation from people that have no idea, that just dont get true struggle. This feels good but also a bit scary to feel so strongly about this but I feel like I have been given this time to understand something that I never did before. I dont know about different struggles as we all have them in someway or another or sometime or another but today I get that it's ok to struggle and it's ok to admit that, own that and feel for others that do to. Pretending struggle isnt there, it's no big deal hurts someone that is already hurting. Miniminzing ones pain does nothing to help it, really only hurts. So I guess today I can say I really do get it and to those who don't, well...I hope you never do!